In God She Trusts

Archive for December 2009

at first, this was a response to her recent Facebook post
but it turned into a novel… so if you have time, enjoy the read 🙂

We came into this world born alone, and out of this world, we will die alone. Throughout our lives, we follow our own individual paths that no other person can ever experience. God has made it that way for each of us… to be unique. Although we’re unique, we naturally crave to be UNDERSTOOD and we despise the feeling of LONELINESS. We know a great happiness when we think about the good relationships in our lives, because they erase this feeling of loneliness, and remind us that we are understood by others. These positive connections could not have been formed without LOVE, TOLERANCE, ACCEPTANCE, and UNDERSTANDING. Knowing that we’ve made a connection with others is THE accomplishment–it gives our lives purpose. God has made each of us different, but God has also made us to love compatibility and understanding.

I think what God wants from each of us is to learn how to love one another, because we’re all the same in that we hate being alone. NOBODY wants to be lonely. Loneliness cripples, and we should all think about THAT type of pain before we dismiss people in our lives. Some people are fortunate to have been born into a loving circle of family and friends. Some people are less fortunate… to be born into the worst living conditions–living in the worst places in Africa, born without limbs, born with diseases, or born in countries full of oppression and poverty. You could have been born into a place where people will kill you for what you believe! These things are real and are happening now! It COULD HAVE been you, but God had a different plan for us. So we should all be grateful and open our hearts to care for others, because NOBODY wants to be lonely. We all should know how that feels, because we’ve felt it sometimes, and should not want others to go through that, if we can help it.  We are selfish, otherwise.

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May the light of God open our eyes and our hearts.

One of the worst things we do as humans is to make ASSumptions about situations.. about people….

Relationships are broken because of ASSumptions.  Relationships stay broken because of ASSumptions.  Relationships never START because of ASSumptions.

In our egocentricity, we naturally believe ourselves to be right.  Don’t worry.  It’s not just you–it’s a natural feeling everyone goes through.  We’ve been taught to defend ourselves, so the intention is good–we’re just trying to protect the things we hold dear to us.

But we should know and keep in mind that if we don’t get our facts straight or SEEK to get our facts straight, we fall into the trap of eventually looking like fools in standing so boldly before the things we accuse.

It’ll take a lot out of us to break through that HUGE wall of pride we build… but we have to believe that good relationships are worth the energy and worth the pain.  We need each other to get along in this world.

None of us can make educated guesses without gathering as many facts and truths as possible. This is true about the things you learn in school and it’s true about forming relationships with people.

Before we ASSume, we should try harder in figuring out the truth and in putting our egos aside to learn understanding.

Then, bend in humility and admit your wrongs.  Here’s a secret: It actually takes a very strong person to do that.

PS.  MOM, God bless your head full of wisdom.
Despite my rebellious life, you’ve always been the
one person who keeps it real with me.  I know
you check up on my pages!  I’m not ashamed.
I        L O V E       Y O U       S O       M U C H    🙂

in God we trust
<33 apes x essence

People have recently asked me if I’ve read “The Secret.”  No I havent… I’ve heard about it and I’d like to one day, to get a better understanding of it… but here’s why…

The word of God teaches us to:

– ask, and you shall receive.
if you don’t ever ask and don’t push for what you want or need, you won’t get it.

– believe and always have faith,
because the blessings you need from life will come to you based on the philosophy of faith that you bring to contact with your life experiences.. and if you don’t have faith, by misdirecting your focus, you’ll miss the gifts God intends for you.

– your eyes are the windows to your soul… focus your eyes on dark and negative things, and you’ll only drown the light and the good spirit living inside you. protect your soul by focusing on the light and the good.  the light will shine through you.. and naturally, all things find hope in and want to gravitate towards the light = the holy spirit inside you.

People say that the universe will bring you good things, if you believe it will.  I believe God made the universe.

Trusting in “The Secret” is a little risky for me and before I read it, I don’t want to forget what I’ve been taught.  I think that the philosophy behind the Secret works… only because it contains God’s truths and God’s teachings… In my opinion, the people behind “The Secret” have taken God out of it, erased him from being the creator and originator of these truths, and instead make us believe that all of the power lies completely in US, without HIM… like someone else biting a dance move and claiming that they created it themselves… or some dope dancer claiming he was never taught or inspired by anyone–just learned and created everything on his own.  Taking it back to the beginning of all things, I believe that God is the source of all truths… and the Bible was written long before “The Secret,” only most people don’t care to read the Bible.

Life is VERY short, and I think about both life and death everyday, because I’ve lost people dear to me, and we never know when our own end will come even if we’re young. If I believe I’m gonna face God when I die,  I would be afraid to discredit him by giving myself or someone else credit for the truths and the powers he intended to pass down to us.

I get pretty upset when people bite dance moves and take credit that isn’t theirs.  I think God would be furious over something like this… it’s life we’re talking about… and he’s testing the kinds of things we put our faith in.

in God we trust
<33 apes x essence

Thank you to Sero, Can, and Actin’ Poetry for bringing me out.  Being in Switzerland was such a pleasure–definitely a breathe of fresh air for me.  I really loved every part of my trip:  foreign food, Doner boxes, kebabs, the provinces, the cities, the dancing, driving through green pastures, the snow-topped mountains, the culture, and most of all the amazingly kind-hearted and generous people I’ve met.  Thank you to all of the cities for welcoming me–Luzern, Lausanne, Zurich, Bern (Limited Edition–familia… I miss you already!), Prilly, and Solothurn.

Stopover @ Amsterdam Schipol Airport

foreign soda

Actin’ Poetry Dance School

That thang was buggin the whole car ride.
Happy to have a familiar face from home with me.

Special hot dog maker!

Bomb chinese restaurant in Bern–Boky

Cream filling!  Do they have these in the U.S.?


Limited Edition Folks

St Ursen – Kathedrale

i need my fried chicken…

Where my Narbonne Gauchos at?!

Some more friends!  Pat X So Real.

Stupid camera for all these blurry pictures :*(
tm X soreal X essence.legacy in Switzerland

Cran . Red Bull . Grey Goose

Dr. Dre headphones.. why do they cost so much!!

Adobo . Pancit . Lumpia . MMMMMMMmmm!

Traveling on clouds.  Very surreal.

Again, being here on Thanksgiving–my first Thanksgiving away from family, really allowed me to spend some quiet time reflecting on dance, life, the world, and everything that’s happened to lead me up to this point of traveling and experiencing places and people like I never thought I would.  For the good times and even the bad, I’m very thankful to Father God for his blessings.  In reflection, I’ve realized that in the coming year I do want to grow spiritually stronger and God has really opened my eyes and my heart through this trip.  No, I’m not perfect and I don’t think I or anyone else will ever be… I’m not–we are not God … but it’s only a matter of time that my faith and the spirit inside me reaches it’s next level of enlightenment, and I know that it will get there, because God continues to reveal himself to me everyday of my life.  As the Christmas season approaches, my prayer for everyone is that we all will reach higher levels of our spirituality through the giving season and reflecting on the blessed and fortunate lives we’ve been graciously given.

in God we trust
<33 apes x essence

Just a photo catch-up highlighting my Sweet November 🙂

Teaching @ Essence MVMNT Workshop with Groove Community

My love, my best friend, my soul

Q & A

Paparazzi @ Body English 😉


Chicken and Rice

View from our hotel room.

Thank you beautiful people for amazing times!  Please continue to dance through life 🙂

Full albums here:
Las Vegas, Nevada
New York, New York
Bergenfield, New Jersey
Boston, Massacusetts
Providence, Rhode Island

in God we trust
<33 apes x essence

PROVERBS 31:10-31

You don't know me yet... but you will. - BZ



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